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Category: Pregnancy

Baby Three: 15 Weeks

Today is 3/22/20 which means I’m 15 weeks! Baby Lamotta is due 9/13/20! Baby is the size of a yellow canary. Baby Lamotta is a GIRL. According to the sneak peek test I did at 8 weeks, we are having another girl! My symptoms definitely felt girl to me. It’s a pretty accurate test but I’m still holding my breath for the ultrasound confirmation. I’ve gained… I don’t want to know. Midwife appointment this week? Yes! I skipped last week because of dehydration that I thought was a stomach bug at…

Why am I not getting pregnant this time?

Why am I not getting pregnant? I’ve asked myself this question many times over the last nine months. After having two kids and three pregnancies, all of which were total accidents, how come now, when I’m actually trying, can I not get pregnant? If you have an idea for what I should try to get pregnant, I promise there’s a very good chance I’ve already tried it. I have been a part of every trying to conceive (TTC) support group on Facebook and tried everything that I can find that made others…

Happy Birthday, Angel Baby

Maybe you would have been a day early like your sister. Maybe you’d be on time like your brother. Maybe you’d be late like your mama. But I’ll never know your story and so I’ll write it for you. June 1st would have been my due date. You would have brought me sunshine in my saddest month. When I got pregnant with you, sweet child, I didn’t know if I could do it. Your due date month was the same month as my mom’s birthday. It was also the same month as the day…

I’m Here For It – Grieving for Mamas and Angel Babies

Over the last year, I have been inundated with emails, blog comments, instagram DMs, facebook messages, etc, from women who have lost their moms, moms who have lost their moms, dads who have lost their wives, etc. I have woken up to these messages. I’ve gone to sleep to these messages. I even got one on my birthday. If you’re here, then there’s a good chance you found me from an article I wrote on Motherly. Or, perhaps, you found me googling grieving your mother. Or, maybe you found me for my motherhood and…

I am 1 in 4.

I (like most people) have become accustomed to tragedy. I don’t say this lightly. After losing my mom, I have learned that having sadness in my life is always within arms reach. Things will happen. There’s nothing we can do to stop the evil. We just have to keep moving, going, hoping that it stays away for as long as possible. Losing my mom was and is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to deal with. It’s something no one can understand until they’ve gone through it &#8211…